ICSI IVF - First round of ICSI and no eggs fertilised!!

I got the call to say that none of our eggs fertilised and it was the most heartbreaking thing i've ever experienced. I literally can't explain the disappointment. The worst thing was, the embryologist was baffled as to why it hadn't worked! She said the sperm and eggs were both good quality..In fact, my eggs had survived the ordeal! They had activated with the presence of the sperm, they just hadn't got to the fertilisation stage. So so sad.

I know you shouldn't expect it to work first time but you just do. It's one of them things, they tell you to stay positive and think positive (because non positive thoughts can affect the process apparently!) but then you build it up in your head and when it goes wrong its the worst feeling, its crushing. You both feel like total failures. We spent most of Friday crying and being generally miserable.

I'd like to say i will be more cautious with my feelings and expectations next time, but because our scenario is so-called 'rare' i am optimistic it will work next time. IT HAS TOO!

I refuse to believe i won't be a mum one day. I really want to experience pregnancy.
There are so many people on facebook and instagram posting Halloween pictures of their babies and its so frustrating. Obviously they are free to do that and when i have a child i will do the same, but it still doesn't make it any easier.

I thought i'd share my timeline and meds:

Day 1: Period arrived, I started Bureselin 0.5mg injections for 3 weeks to shut down my system.
Day 21: Had a scan to check my womb lining was ready, and it was. I carried on taking Bureselin but also started Menopur 150mg the next day to stimulate the ovaries.
Day 8 of stims (friday): Had a scan to check the progress of my follicles. I had 7 on each side measuring around 10mm-13mm. And lots of little ones around them.
Day 11 (Mon): Had another scan and i had 24 follicles(eggs) measuring between 10mm-15mm, i had one at 19mm.
Day 13 (Wed): Had another scan and i still had 24 follicles(eggs) measuring between 10mm-21mm
I got given my trigger injection Ovitrelle 250mg, and took it at 8:15pm. Retrieval is in 36 hours!
Day 15 (Fri): Egg Collection day! 8:15am i went into theatre to be put to sleep. They retrieved 9 eggs, 6 were mature enough to inject with sperm. I went home, i was sick (i drank to soon after waking up) and felt abit swolen but generally in a good mood.
Saturday: Got the call that none of our eggs fertilised.

I am taking Fragmin, to thin my blood as they classed me as having mild OHSS, I also have a tablet to help the syndrome. I still need to take this injection till i have my period.

I have an appointment on 16th November with my Fertility Doctor to find out when we can start again and get some feedback.

Apparently because we didn't get fertilisation and a transfer it isn't classed as 'a go' therefore we still have two more goes at this. Please keep your fingers crossed for us.

Has anyone else been through this? Please comment if you have.

5 Things:

Don't you just love weekends!!

01: Hair
SO, If you have read my previous post about dying my hair you know that i put another dye on this weekend. I really love it and i'm really liking being Ginger. I know it will wash out a bit when i wash it tomorrow but the dye kit has a colour extender included so hopefully it wont be too bad. I'd really like to get some extensions too but because the tone and colour will change all the time, it's just not worth it. I really recommend the dyes used but i'd still advise anyone with brunette hair to lighten their hair a little first.

02: Food & Drink
This weekend has been pretty good food-wise but pretty naughty considering i am supposed to be on Slimming World. After weigh-in on saturday (i put half a pound on oooops) I had a sausage and egg roll. Pretty naughty. But then the same day i went to McDonalds! Very Naughty. Then me and Rick went out for a few drinks (Half a bottle of wine and 5 bacardi's later...!) then had half a pizza!!. NAUGHTY.

Today we had a lie in and then went to the local Carvery for 'All you can eat Breakfast' and my god was that good! Not bad for £3.99. For tea i have just made a roast beef dinner.

Diet pink lemonade :)

So basically i have not followed Slimming World all weekend. I'm a shit bag. I am back on it 100% tomorrow and I'm also getting back to the gym tomorrow after work. But oesn't it look good? So worth it.


03: House
Let's admit it, Weekends are spent frantically cleaning the house because you couldn't be arsed doing it during the week, right? Well that's how it goes with me haha. I spent this afternoon blitzing the kitchen and the bathroom. I managed to hang a few pictures up near my sink area, which I have been meaning to do forever! I always feel so calm after a good clean.

04: Shoes
I recently bought some shoes from New Look and they are so comfy and perfect for those days you want be casual but maybe not so casual that your wearing converse.
They are quite low heel and were on offer :) Win Win.

 They really reminded me of these Steve Madden Boots....
These below are also from New Look:

I also cheekily got some jelly shoes for summer...
It's happened, i've gone back to the 90's hahaha.

I actually bought some last June to use in Greece, but i left them there thinking i'd never wear them in the UK but I actually think i would.

These were only £8 off ebay.


05: Motivation
I really need to get my act together now and get motivated to lose weight. I have lost 10lb so far and want to have got my stone award by the 19th April for my appointment.
I have pretty much planned my meals for the week in my head so im sure i will be fine, but it's nearly witch week so i'm craving chocolate at the moment...
Wish me luck!!

Hope you have all had a great weekend!

My Kitchen Updated

Hello! Our kitchen tiling is done!! Yipeeeeee. I have included some pictures below :)

My dad did the tiling for us which was great and low cost ;) Thanks Dad. I

 am still working on the photo frames at either side of the cooker. I aim to have 3 on each side. Overall i am very happy with the way it looks.

Sarah xoxo

Almost Famous Review - Manchester GN

Thinking back I can't actually remember why or how i heard about Almost Famous, but when i did the first thing i did was Google it and look at the pictures. From that moment, i was sold!

I went to the one in the warehouse (Manchester GN), Lucha Libre is right near and i think there is bowling in that building too. Anyways, I have now been 3 times and I am ashamed to admit that i have had the same thing each time. (if i like something i find it hard to stray)

Here is the menu:

I had the Butter Blood and Bleu with Bacon Bacon Fries. And a Cherry Bomb Cocktail :)
£21 of goodness, just for me.

My fiance had the Triple Nom and Bacon Bacon Fries.

It's just completely delicious. It is a massive burger and i had to cut it in half to eat it and i also always remove most of the steak and eat it with the fries just so i can fit the burger in my mouth. The chips are my fave. They are just pure awesomeness. They have Baconnaise and bacon bits on them and they are fries and sweet potato fries mixed.

Service is quick and the longest we've had to wait was 40 mins and that was on a Saturday (i think) The first time we went was a Thursday night and there was just the two of us and we got a table straight away despite it being packed. The second time there was 4 of us and we waited 40 mins and the last time was a tuesday lunch and we got a table straight away as it had only been open half an hour.

I can't recommend it enough!!

Hair Update: Being Blonde

So when i decided to go blonde in December i knew it would be hard and it has been pretty challenging. My hair is so weak and snaps so easily and as you can tell from the pictures its gone a lot shorter. BUT I am loving it I feel so different being Blonde. It doesn't change the way people treat you in my opinion. Well, not in a bad way. I always have a good experience being Blonde. It's just draining on the bank balance and the scalp.

(With extensions)

It was good being this blonde but everytime i had my roots done my hair seemed to get even more multicoloured and looked uneven and started to look yellow on the ends and white on the roots, not a good look! So i decided to get a box hair dye from Tesco and go a little darker blonde....and i hated it at first but now i like it and it seems more natural. Im going to let my roots grow and possibly do a sort of ombre.

Above: Before i dyed it. Looks horrid being so multi-tonal.

I used this dye on dry hair.

Looks nice right? Below: Is in a different light but same day.

Above: Today, without extensions in. Also day old hair so not as fluffy.

Also i'm loving my bareminerals tester!! My skin looks really clear!